This is the posting, where the blogger usually laments for not publishing anything for a long time, in this case for over half a year, and promises to get more active again. The regret often makes it a bit dull, however, on the other side of the coin lies those, perhaps interesting, reasons having lead to the such a break.
The first excuse is travelling Bali and Australia for 1,5 months. The trip was a success and a bright light of the year in every way. Skipping the darkest time of the year in Finland was naturally out of question earlier. I was lucky having this opportunity and experience on the other side of the globe.
The second excuse is writing intensively something else, to be precise a bunch of poems, over the course of the late autumn and the winter. Instead of writing I could also say, that the words only came out, which is fascinating and weird. This creative work was therapeutic, engaging and rewarding, but at the same time intense, difficult and ate a lot of energy and time. Kind of pity, that they were written in Finnish, but time will tell, if they get published later somewhere.
The third excuse is a lack of inspiration. Well, so I first wrote here until understanding, that it is actually merely about a lost ability, hopefully not facing, but at least exposing the reality. I surely would like to have some spectacular news, plans, endeavours, a new studying place in mind or an announcement about a cool start up. Instead, during blog silence I may have actually a few times sailed through some of the darkest waters since quitting the job a way over a year ago. So, for months I did not even open the blog page.
This last point about facing the reality reminded and demonstrates once again, what exactly is one of the hardest things to learn and to execute with the blog and in life. Kickstart My Heart and the project live only through pure honesty to the self, being direct and relatively open (I say relatively, as you won´t shout aloud all about you, right?) Any acting or showing the things proceeding either better or worse, than in reality, would be fatal both to the blog and to the entire endeavour.
“Fake smiles, pretended cries, a few white lies and everything dies.”
What also eventually drives me returning to the blog is, that it clearly has a great value in terms of connecting with the people. Within one year I have already got new friend(s) because of it and with many existing friends the relationship has gone into a deeper level. Even during these months of not being active, the blog has (in&)directly led me to a couple of new interesting and lovely people.
This leads me repeating the two simple lessons learned. Lesson#1. You got to give something from yourself in order to get something back. This has never been very natural for me, but hey, for example writing a blog is one way of practicing. In reference to the work life theme of the blog, giving something from yourself becomes overwhelming during the times of excess work loads, exhaustion and stress. Lesson#2. We are not working machines, we are human beings and we need time and energy to connect and face each other. Our society still keeps on forgetting this, so, people, we need to keep on reminding!